PutriEira's ♥

helpless, hopeless

2012-01-27T23:33:00.001+08:00

I still put a smile on my face.

there's nothing left.

I miss all the little things. I never thought that they'd mean everything to me.

yes, I miss you and I wish you were here.

I know my heart will never be the same but I'm telling my heart that I'll be okay,

I will survive.

2012-01-13T23:30:00.001+08:00

but at the end of everyday, I still want you. I'll wait for you.

there's nothing else I can say. you just know me. you know me well enough.

through it all, nobody ever gets me like you do. I'm not lying. I swear. I'll wait for you.

2012 has just begun.

not really a good start for my 2012.

sorry, I can't let you go. I just want you to know that my heart remains with you. forever.

though we're thousand miles apart but still, you're so close to my heart.

I know you, you did not want this to happen either. this is not how you want it to be

so baby I'll wait for you because I don't know what else I can do.

2012-01-01T00:28:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum 2012.

happy new year everyone and happy eleven months.

2011-12-29T23:15:00.003+08:00

my body is here but not my mind. my knees, they're far too weak now that I can't even stand on my own properly. I can't think straight, I'm shivering. I'm so fucked up, I can't barely breathe. I'm a mess. my soul's gone, I feel so empty without you. I can't breathe, I swear I'm suffocating.

take me away. I don't belong here. I don't know what should I do. all I want to do is cry. only God knows how it feels to be me right now. just please, take me away already, it hurts, it fucking hurts. but what more can I say? I love you too much to let you go. I won't let you go.

I love you so much and nothing can change that. I'm willing to do anything as long as you're with me. I want you to be happy even if it's not with me but yes, the truth is I want you, only you. I want you for myself only. I'm selfish. I'll just keep on telling myself that everything is going to be okay. I'll fight these tears, and heartaches. call me crazy, call me stupid, I don't care. I'll wait for you forever. you done nothing. you're not horrible, you're my other half. I can't go a day without you :'(
I just want you to be happy. that's all.

I'm here forever for you. I will wait for you even for a thousand years. I just want to make you happy. I'll do whatever it takes as long as that smile on your face, stay there forever. I will wait for you. I love you.
I know I can't give you anything fancy, I can only love you with all my heart. I hope it's enough. I can only be loyal to you. I will wait for you baby, I swear.

just please, don't turn your back on me. I remember everything you said. I promise, I won't hate you, I won't leave you. I made my decision and that's final. I just want to be happy for once and I want that feeling to stay forever. just so you know, you are my happiness. you have my soul, you have my heart. there's always a place for you in my heart, you're at the top and no one can take your place in my heart. I'll wait for you baby.

2011-12-27T16:30:00.002+08:00

words can't describe how I feel right now.

all I want to do is cry.

2011-12-18T19:10:00.000+08:00

losing something that was never yours. it hurts.

care less or you'll end up getting hurt. this is what I suggest you. as simple as that.

2011-12-16T05:24:00.002+08:00

"love means that you accept a person with all their failures, stupidities, ugly points and nonetheless you see perfection in imperfection itself"

I still remember the day that I finally caved in. it was great how this one person managed to make me fall for him after all the heartbreaks and all the disappointments that I've been going through all this while. it was beautiful how I managed to break the walls that he built. he has his own ways of keeping me coming back for me.

someday I know I will lose you. I might lose you to fate. I might lose you to some stupid reasons but that does not give us any reason to back out now. I just want you to know that, no matter how hard things going to be, it doesn't make me love you any less. no words can fully describe the feelings I have for you. I hate the idea of anyone else having you. I'm scared to see you with someone else.

sometimes we have to be apart from someone we love but that doesn't mean we love them any less. sometimes it makes us love them even more. yes, distance can be sucks sometimes but you're worth the wait. and thanks to you for waiting for me since February. even though I didn't treat you well all this while :p

you still give me butterflies. you're the one that makes me feel all giddy up. there's nothing but chill vibes and good laughs whenever I'm with you. you always have this smirk on your face whenever I say or do something stupid. remember when watched this one sad movie but no we didn't cry, we laughed instead. it is all because of you and it was a pure bliss. everything seems fine whenever I'm with you. I swear, you're the cutest!

I don't want to think about our future because I might lose you at the very moment but being with you has been keeping me alive. I want this feeling to stay, as long as it could. I want you to always remember me and prove to me that you're different from the rest. you and me, nothing gets better qh ♥

2011-12-15T14:38:00.001+08:00

2011-11-27T01:59:00.001+08:00

I can't even shut my eyes without hearing your voice. your voice and laughter are my lullaby before I go to bed at night. not being able to communicate with you is hard. trust me. HARD. I can't even go a day without you. what is this actually? what has got into me?

I miss you, yes that is the perfect words to describe my feelings right now. everything is so messed up. distance kills. but when I said I'm willing to wait for you, that means I will wait for you. I won't hurt you, trust me, no hesitation. be good love! I promise you that we'll spend our time together, soon. and I bet we'll laugh our asses off listening to our endless stories. missshhh youuu ♥

2011-11-01T00:16:00.000+08:00

late night conversation with you is my new favourite thing to do know. thanks for always cheering me up. you just know how to my make smile. thanks for your endless support. you've been my solid rock and my backbone for almost one year now. you saved me. I swear things just can't get any better than this. or maybe it could. I'm not getting my hopes high but hey, at least I'm starting to believe in myself and to have faith in myself.

and hey it's November already. so we have 1.11.11, 11.11.11 and 20.11.2011 this month. nice dates!

2011-10-31T00:35:00.000+08:00

well, assalamualaikum November. I know we'll make it through this together. insyaAllah.

anyway, school is ending in a week. time is moving faster from day to day now. and... 2WEEKS before SPM? what is this?! I'm back to having mixed feelings whenever I think about SPM. to be frank, I'm not ready for it. not at all and I don't really want to take that examination but at the same time I don't want to leave high school. I don't necessarily want to leave so soon. high school life is definitely one of the best thing that I'll never forget. it has been 5 years, made a lot of beautiful friends in CBN, lovely teachers and of course I'll miss my netballers the most. I've come a long way and here I am, can you believe this guys? we've come so far now. but as we all know, life gets harder as we grow older. have some faith and don't stop praying for a better tomorrow. okay? amin. tomorrow's Monday, last assembly at school. last assembly of my high school years. can you still believe it? I feel like crying and shaking at the same time.

I don't really study at home and I just don't know why. but I'm trying my best here to revise almost everything. hmm if only if only..... I'm gonna be busy with seminar SPM starting tomorrow. I hope everything gonna be okay. insyaAllah. please pray for me xx

2011-10-27T20:10:00.000+08:00

I don't mind explaining things to you one by one because I don't want you to misunderstand me.
I don't mind spending all my time talking to you.
I don't mind sacrificing things for you.
I don't mind cooling you down whenever you're all fired up and angry.
I don't mind doing stupid things with you.
I don't mind waking you up again and again.
I don't mind you falling asleep while talking to me on the phone.
I don't mind hearing things you said for hours.
I don't mind cooking for you.
I don't mind that you're shorter than me.
I don't mind singing for you and I don't mind hearing you singing.
I don't mind you giving me nicknames.
I don't mind I don't mind.
it is just the beginning of our story <3

2011-10-23T00:27:00.001+08:00

me, spm candidate 2011.

it's all about spm now. yes, spm!

I just need my family, friends, energy, strength and especially Allah to guide me and to win this war that I'm going to face on the 14th of November. it will be just me and all the exam papers in the examination hall.

to be frank, I'm scared. like seriously. I'm not ready at all. I wasted my precious time just like that. looking back and regretting everything, that's me. I should have started studying earlier but no! I didn't. such a stupid me! hmm but I still have 23days left. I have to do this. I just wanna get into a good uni. that's all. I'll figure out about my life later but yes, I want it so bad right now. I wanna make my parents proud. I know I'm not going to be able to get straight A's but 4 to 6 A's is good enough for me and and no D's please.

please tell me that you can get through this Putri! 23days left! spirit! you can do this!

pray for me, please? <3

2011-10-18T14:47:00.002+08:00

27 DAYS TILL SPM 2011! WHAAAAAAA? I.AM.SCARED.NO.JOKE!

2011-10-04T18:21:00.001+08:00

it's hard to forget someone that once means a lot to you.
I gave you a lot of chances but you blew it. you take me for granted and I just can't bear with this feeling anymore. I love you enough to let you go. it's hard for you but it's even harder for me. I'm fighting my tears. I'm going to keep myself busy. I'm going to make myself do things so I wouldn't start thinking. I need to start trying. it will be hard but still I have to try. I'm sorry and thanks for everything. you've been good to me. Putri, it's just a matter of time. insyaAllah everything will be fine.

2011-09-15T16:22:00.001+08:00

me with my new spectacles :)

ZOMG!

2011-08-16T00:02:00.001+08:00

91 DAYS TILL SPM 2011! :O

DUUDDDEEEEE! SERIOUSLY?! SCARY SHIZZZZ! I SERIOUSLY NEED TO STUDY MY FCKING ASS OFF! DA KENE START DAH. TAPI AKU NI MALAS AHHH. TGK BUKU JE DAN DAN LA MATA AJAK TIDUR LA, ITU LA, INI LA, ADE JELA BENDA YG NK DISTRACT. ACAANNEERR? TKPE TKPE, INSYAALLAH BOLEH. FIKIRKAN BOLEH!

AND YEAAAHH, PUASA DA 2 MINGGU DA? OKAAY, THAT WAS FAST. I CAN'T EVEN... NAH NVM. WAIT! KENAPA SEMUA CAPS LOCK NI? ADAKAH SBB EXCITED NK SHOPPING DAN RAYA ATAU PUN CUAK NK TRIAL AND SPM LEPAS NI? HUAARRGGHH.!! OKAY I'M GOING TO KILL MYSELF NOW. I'M DYING. KBAI!

1 Ramadhan 1432H, Assalamualaikum.

2011-08-01T22:19:00.000+08:00

hello readers! how is everyone doing? it has been decades since I last sign in. well, I'm a very busy woman nowadays! haha naaahh, scratch that. I'm just too lazy to update. forgive me :3

so yeaaah, it's officially August now! it's frigggiiiinn AUGUST! AND TRIAL IS ON SEPTEMBER. 5TH OF SEPTEMBER WHICH IS RIGHT AFTER RAYA! there will be no raya for me this year, I guess? :( can someone just kill me already? but whatever, I'm effin scared :/ I'm not ready at all. seriously, I'm not fucking ready at all!

oh btw, Salam Ramadhan to all Muslims out there. may this ramadhan bring us happiness and may Allah S.W.T forgive us for the sins we did. beribadah selagi boleh ye kawan2? puasa, jgn tipu tipu kay. happy fasting too everyone! :)

okay sambung balik psl trial,

since I got nothing to do yesterday, I studied sejarah instead. and I just found out that I know nothing about sejarah. I cried, and realising that TRIAL is in 30fuckingdays, I cried my eyes out :( baru sejarah, subject lain lg cane? hmm.. wake the fuck up Putri! pleaseee jgn malas malas da. setan semua da kene ikat and now you have to control yourself. haha no I'm not kidding. start doing revision please will you?

emmm okaaayyy, I'll try my best to do some revision and exercises (harapan yg sgt tipis)

wish me luck! and have a nice Ramadhan everyone, dekatkan diri dgn Allah S.W.T okay supaya semua benda kita buat pun diberkati. amin. ♥

2011-07-11T19:15:00.000+08:00

Every Girl`s Dream:

Get kissed in the rain.
Have that one hot kiss where your pressed against the wall.
Have a guy who thinks she`s the world.
Have a guy who holds on as long as possible when giving hugs.
A guy who whispers he loves her in her ears.
Have that moment where you just gaze into each others eyes.
When you cry, he kisses your tears away.
When you`re not with your guy he`s all that you can think about.
Wearing his jacket and every time you breath in, his scent surrounds you.
A guy who will watch any movie with her, no matter how teary eyed she may get.
A guy who squeezes her hand.
A guy who says he loves her and means it.
A guy who will play her favorite song outside her window.
A guy who is loyal.
A guy who will sing to her no matter how bad he is at it.
A guy who will kiss her on the forehead.
A guy who will call her beautiful or adorable. Not hot, fine, or sexy.
A guy who will never judge her for how she looks.
A guy who says cheezy stuff to her just to make her smile.
A guy who`s the same when he is with her and when with friends.
A guy who tells her everything honestly.
A guy who`s good with her family and introduces her to his family.
A guy who will always let her win.
A guy who stands up for her no matter who it is against.
A guy who calls her at night just to say ‘hi’ and see how her day has been.
A guy who tells her that her smile makes his day and makes everything better.
A guy who will sit on the phone with her when she`s sad, even if she`s quiet.
A guy who she can hangout and have fun with.
A guy who will just randomly call her for no reason at all, just because he misses her.
A guy who will hold her hand through the roughest parts of life.
A guy who would love her forever no matter the circumstance.
A guy who wouldn`t mind her wanting to get all dressed up and do herr make up for him. Even if he says he likes her better without make up.
A guy who runs his fingers through her hair, like he’s washing her worries and troubles away.
A guy whom she can be herself with and he will never give a care and would still tell her that she`s amazing to him.

got this from tumblr, well, it's true :)

wishes never work, but prayers do.

2011-07-01T21:56:00.001+08:00

omg is it July already? NOT GOOD! it can't be July yet! what ever happend to January, February, March, April, May and June? SPM is just around the corner. but why didn't I spend my time on books again? why oh why? I wasted 6 months just like that. should have study from the start. silly me! and now I have to cope up with everything. so many things to do, so little time. I have to struggle and its a hard work to do. wuuu.. you can do this baby. but well, at least I spent my last week of June wisely :)

so yeaaah, good luck to everyone! throw your laziness far far away from now on and let us all study our asses off for this coming SPM. we surely can do it! (can't promise this but I'll try my best ;p) and I'll try to focus on everything that I do. I'll focus on my studies, my daily life, my family, my friends and love and I'll be more responsible. and I'll keep in line with Allah and try to perfect 5times a day. insyaAllah.

anyway, I just wanna thank God for giving me such a great life together with the lovely people around me. Alhamdulillah

10062011, 17 ♥

2011-06-10T15:37:00.000+08:00

happyyy sweet seveeenntteeenn to me ! :D

I just wish for 9A's in SPM! thats all I ever wanted.

anyway, thanks so much everyone for all the sweet and thoughtful wishes!

I really really appreciate it. May Allah bless us all and may He give us the best in everything we do ♥

and please dont forget my present yea :P

wishlist

2011-06-09T12:36:00.002+08:00

9A's spm
more money :p
iphone4
blackberry bold3
itouch
florra by gucci
the one by dolce&gabbana
lumix GF2.

JUSTIN DREW BIEBER ♥

2011-05-04T17:43:00.002+08:00

addiction ;)

no words can describe how awesome he is. he is just super duper amazing. he is oh so adorable and sweet! I swear. it's funny how I can be so in love with Justin Bieber now. it's not like I don't like him before. I do like him. but now? I FUCKING LOVE HIM! haha and I find it funny how my heart skip a beat whenever Justin Bieber tweet something. I get nervous and all excited. what have you done to me Justin? :P

well, JBieber is a real inspiration. he truly inspire me and a lot of people out there. yeaaapp, I've been talking about him like a lot nowadays, I can't stop. hihi sometimes, I think my family and friends are annoyed by me for the fact that I love Justin Bieber so much. well, sorry can't help it haha

but somehow I got this strong feelings that he hates Malaysia and I don't know why. but it doesn't matter, we will still love him anyways. we will LOVE him no matter what, now and forever :)

Justin Bieber, please remember that all of your fans are amazing. we are here for you, no matter what.

lovee youu Justin Bieber. stay awesome! ♥

CBN U18 and U15 netballers.

2011-04-22T15:48:00.000+08:00

Alahamdulillah.

congratulations guys! we're the champion again this year. good job.

20-0, 8-5, 20-1, 12-4 AND 10-8 :D

clap clap to CBN's netball team for keeping the Keramat champ title for 2 years in a row.

and congratulations to my juniors too, champion okay . I'm so proud of you guys.

and honestly, I'm going to miss all of you. you guys are part of my life, netball is part of my life. we are like sisters. we've been through a lot and but we are still strong together. win or lose, that's the other side of the story. as long as we're together, that is enough for me. love, spirit, respect and discipline.

I LOVE YOU GUYS TO BITS! ♥

APRIL

2011-04-22T15:08:00.000+08:00

April ; SUCH A HECTIC MONTH EVER!

I've been really busy with training and all. missed lessons, class and also tuition.

I'm mentally and physically tired. like seriously.

a lot of things happened. good and bad things. hmm

anyway, I went to PWTC on the 10th of April. went to see my Bruno Mars! hehe

he is so adorable and such a sweetheart. come to Malaysia again. you are always welcome :)

Siti Najiha

2011-03-30T19:48:00.000+08:00

Siti Najiha a.aka jihalawey (konon hot :P)

she is very understanding, caring and loving. get to know her, you'll love her. she's a very good person, indeed! she will always listen to me. I can rely and count on her.

adik, please take care of yourself. I know you'll be fine at your new school. make your parents proud, make me proud, make your friends proud. you know I love you. you're the best. I love you and I'm gonna miss you a lot! ♥

2011-03-24T18:45:00.001+08:00

A smile can hide everything. how powerful is that ?
lies lies lies :)

pray for Japan

2011-03-16T04:57:00.002+08:00

tsunami ; Japan 2011

I'm terrified. I'm scared. I cried.

I cried for what had happened. I refuse to believe the 2012 movie.

but I just can't stop thinking about this. why do I feel like something is ending?

just pray to Allah, Putri. don't stop praying.

Ya Allah, forgive me for all of my sins and help me always turn to You seeking forgiveness and Mercy until I die. Ya Allah, please protect my family, my friends and all of us around the world and please forgive us. Amin

don't grieve, for Allah is with us.

2011-03-09T19:33:00.001+08:00

A video that I would like to share with you guys, dear readers. don't forget to click the "play button" . it's worth it. it's worth your time ;)

a lil bit of everything

2011-03-02T19:27:00.000+08:00

current me :)

okay, I'd like to share something with you guys. something about me.

yeaap, I got this from the internet by DMFK.

well, honestly, I have all these kind of attitude in me, like seriously.

Berfikiran jauh & berwawasan

Mudah ditawan, lemah lembut

Mudah berubah sikap, perangai, idea & mood

Banyak idea, seorang pemikir

Suka melakukan sesuatu dgn segera

Terlalu memilih & mahukan yg terbaik

Cepat marah & cepat sejuk

Suka bercakap & berdebat

Suka berjenaka & bergurau

Otaknya cerdas

Mudah berangan

Mudah & pandai berkawan

Sgt tertib

Mudah kecil hati

Mudah kena selsema

Cepat rasa bosan, cerewet, brended & degil

Suka berkemas

Sesiapa yg memuji adalah musuhnya & sesiapa

yg menegur adalah kawannya

Susah untuk melahirkan perasaan kpd org

tersayang

shock? haha but it's kinda true yeah. 99% true.

there you go, at least you guys know something about me.

you guys can learn to accept me and get to know me before you judge me xx

I'm now 17 y/o

2011-01-02T01:17:00.002+08:00

why not?

eat more healthy food and quit eating junks so much
study hard, study smart
revise at least 2 hours a day, or 3 would be better
keep in line with God, try to perfect 5 times a day
study study study
keep my social life and academic life balanced
be a better person
stay strong, hold on and dont give up easily
study again and again
would like to lose weight. a lot of weight
spend less time social networking
be nice to everyone
study steady
stop being so emotional
stop unnecessary thinking
just study study study
study strong
strive for my goal
gotta make a change for myself
no more heartache
I want to be happy
anak yang solehah!
study study study study study study

okaaay, that's a lot of pressure I'm putting on self. and yes, that was my new year's resolutions.
note to self, dont let this resolutions be a mere resolutions. you have to commit it Putri. commit it! InsyaAllah

but omg! I still cant believe it. its 2011! I'm 17? haha okay whatever. 2011 gonna be a tough year for me. I'm gonna face my huge huge huge exam this year and I'm so not ready for it. there's nothing I can do more this year than catching up what I missed in 2010. okaay, I missed a lot. haiyaaa. wish me luck

and to upsr, pmr and spm candidates, all the best. keep track of your goals. may Allah bless us all and may what we've studied all this while gonna stick in our mind forever. happy new year everyone. be nice :)

and may you rest in peace Faizal. Faizal Yusuf, our talented actor passed away on 1/1/11 due to heart attack. and takziah to Faizal Yusuf's family. be strong. may he'll be placed in Allah's Jannah. you will always be remembered and dearly missed. AL-FATIHAH

11 is the new 10

2010-12-31T04:53:00.004+08:00

whooa! today is the last day for 2010.

okay okay, first of all! congratulations Harimau Malaya! we are so proud of you guys! stay awesome ♥ I love Malaysia, proud to be Malaysian! :D

so basically, time flies real fast when we least notice it. it feels like I just had my 2010 new year celebration and resolutions and whatnots but now, wallaaaah! it's the end of 2010 already. WHAT A YEAR, 2010! I've been through a lot and I'm so thankful for everything. the good and the bad, I've learned a lot this year. I've learned that things don't always turn out the way we plan, or the way think they should, that some broken things stay broken, etc. everything happens for a reason. love, illness, lost moment, injury and a lot more. God will test us all the time. God has His own ways of doing things, I believe. but God is always with us, He wont leave us.

I know I'm not perfect. I've done a lot of bad things. dear God, please forgive me. and dear friends, for things I did wrong, for words which might hurt, for jokes you cant take and for advise you cant accept, I apologize.

yours sincerely,

putrieira

p/s; whats for new year's eve peeps?

lovely seniors

2010-12-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

me, kak Nad and kak Aliaa.

imyguys ♥

heartbeat

2010-12-24T21:01:00.005+08:00

hello dear bloggers! hows everyone doing? :)

anyway me and my girls went out yesterday. we went to Pavi and watched Gulliver's Travels. the movie was okaay. did a lilttle shopping at Sg.Wang. SALE SALE SALE! I was like omg! but haha too bad! I didnt have enough money. but still, I'm exhausted! walking around Pavi and Sg.Wang and all -.-' but I had fun. hmm Anis kene balik MRSM on 26th, gonna miss you Anis! take care xx

some picture of us, more on facebook :)

and not to forget;

congratulations to my adik2 on their PMR results. esp to Jiha, Amm, Ainur, Mai, Abi and others.

I'm so proud of you guys. your hard work and diligence has paid off!

anyways, merry christmas to those who celebrate it and happy day to those who dont! xox

have some faith. not everyone you love is going to leave you

2010-12-15T18:00:00.001+08:00

I'm happy if you're happy.

I'm happy when you're always with me.

we have our ups and downs but still,

I love you A

you have my soul, I'm just letting you know.

548days

♥
p's; I miss you

major breakdown

2010-12-04T23:14:00.004+08:00

hi guys! anyway, happy Saturday! :)

seriously not in the mood right now. first day of period. bloodddyyy stressing I tell you!
I'm seriously in pain right now. bloody period painn! erghh! dgn sakit pinggang nyaa, sakit perut nyaa lagii =,=' what a paaaain..

but then, I got to meet 3 beautiful people today. Yaya, Anyse and Aien. minum and lepak2. they were all nicee. it was really nice meeting them just now. even sekejap je dgn kalutnya lg. but its okaay. there's always next time.
but sedihnyaa, tk dpt meet Mell. hmm.. we should meet up, all of us someday ♥
some pictures of us, xx

Yaya, Anyse

Yaya

Aien yg malu and Anyse yg nga serabut :P

muke kami dua paling annoying kan? haha muke penat

lawa lawa kan dorg? hehe okaay boiii :)

p/s; cant wait for tmrw ♥

insanely insane ♥

2010-12-03T02:58:00.001+08:00

this is my family members. my inspirations. *wink wink*

I 'think' I never write about my family before. particularly about them.

but I'm in the mood right now. so yeaahh.. :)

different familes, different stories, different thoughts and different feelings.

for me, family always comes first no matter what. I'll never love anyone else like them. without them, I'll never exist. they are so special to me. like really. they could make me and my world feel so happy, they could hurt me most inside, we argue a lot and they see my flaws. I'm really stubborn yet they still love me with all their heart, especially mama and baba. they get angry and dissapointed with me a lot. I know that and I'm sorry. but the best part is, they love me for who I am. nothing can compare and nothing cant defeat our love. hehe I wouldnt want to replace or exchange anyone even sometimes I get annoyed by them.

though I never showed my love as a daughter and as a sister obvious enough but only God knows how much I love each and everyone of them. cause I'm so sweet liddat hehe

I LOVE YOU guys. muaahh!

the first time

2010-12-01T23:58:00.003+08:00

this is Jiha,

well, shes my crazy sister, yet very understanding.

and shes fucking ANNOYING! like really, I'm not lying.

but but but I still love her, this kiddo! hehe

she reminded me about our 6months last week.

kecoh gilaaa :P baru skrg nk igt. brr!

ahahha nevertheless, lebiu sistaa ♥

and and ohh, its December already? o.O how fast!

it really seems like yesterday,

when I was writing about what had happend in January.

and poooffff! December is here. greaatt =,='

S.P.M / 2011 !

yikesss! I'm not ready for next year. I'm not ready at all.

didnt do any preparations for next year.

hell no! I'm not gonna study. haha

I want to rest and enjoy this year while I can

because I 'THINK' I'm gonna work my ass off next year. haha InsyaAllah.

I'm hoping that I can cop and manage with what will happen next year

aminn

and my December baby, please be nice to me

and dear Allah,

please grant me happiness, love and good health this month and for the future.

and please forgive me, my family members, my friends

and same goes to the others.

may Allah bless us all, insyaAllah :)

p/s; guess who am I copying right now? jeng jeng jeng! haha :P

and I'm missing you so much A. 4 more days to go, woots!

till then , AXEOHAXEOH

♥

mok!

2010-11-24T15:26:00.000+08:00

BOREDOM STRIKES!

current pictures of me, November'10 :)

this is what happens when boredom hits me

and end up taking pictures of myself.

vain, I know haha.

till then, xoxo ♥

piqa, the birthday girl

2010-11-16T17:45:00.000+08:00

happy birthday cina! finally, youre 16 now! hahaa lame sungguh nk tggu kan but yeaahh. have a blast and enjoy your life while you can. goodluck I love you baby. muaahh sorry cant celebrate it together. but you know I love you kan bestfriend. ♥

I Love Netball.

2010-11-16T11:28:00.007+08:00

well hello. whadduupp guys? hoho

anyways, kelmarin team cbn pergi ke Negeri Sembilan. we went to TKC for Tuanku Ampuan Najihah Premier Cup. its like a tradition, actually its just a friendly match but yeaahh.. CBN vs TKC. this year the game will be held at Tunku Kurshiah College sbb last 2 years da buat dkt CBN, mhmm we won the game last two years, actually kami tk pena kalah pun since game ni ade :) but tkde rezeki for this year. f*cccckkkkk!! ni yg nk mula maki2 marah2 ni!

okaayy, nape aku marah? sbb referee Negeri Sembilan yg cam sh*t wehh. sumpah panas. mesti korg igt kite bg alasan ref cam nta pape je kan sbb kiteorg kalah. but the real truth is tidak. sape yg ade mase game dorg tau ape jd. kiteorg kalah by 35-38. sikit kan? mmg marah! ref, kalau nk berat sebelah baek tk payah buat je this game. biar TKC je menang dari awal. tkde la penat kami training selama 1bulan cam org gile. thank God referee KL (mama yus) ade. sgt la profesional. sgt la ADIL. ni la baru referee yg berwibawa, bkn cam referee Negeri Sembilan tu. sorry to say laaa but yeahh! erghhh geram. kalau ref tu handle game yg laen cam ni. mmg tk ke mana la dye. or maybe ref tu baru nk blaja ke ape? aku pun tktau lah. paling kisaahh

pada sape yg tgk game kami smlm korg tau kan ape jd. cbn boleh menang. but yeaah tkc pun bagus jugak. kiteorg fight. seronok je maen net to net but bile cbn da lead byk and start la ref dye blow whistle sana sini. cam tkde hala tujuan je tiup. lg lg masa last quarter. lg seronok la dye tiup whistle. kalau dye blow benda btol tkpe. ni tk! ishh summpaah berat sebelah! tkpe tkpe, let tkc enjoy the moment once. tk bole nk salahkan budak2 tkc jugak sbb game mmg fight. tp di sebabkan ade referee yg tktau maksud keadilan tu ade, mmg cbn kene blow teruk la kan. cam ade pesta tiup meniup whistle je masa last quarter tu. haihh its okay. biar org buat dkt kite, jgn kite buat dkt org.. tkpeee :) kalah skali bkn kalah slame2nye kan.

but anyway, sorry kak fiza, cegu cegu, seniors, pihak skola. kami tk dpt nk kekalkan kemenangan. da mmg tkde luck menyebelahi kami this time. whatever it is, cbn , is the REAL CHAMPION in my heart. thnk you dear netballers sbb bg kerjasama dgn Put. and special thnks to cegu2 seniors and esp kak fiza sbb byk da sacrifice masa dan tenaga utk kami. thnks a million :) and sedihkan cegu ros nanges sbb dye frust dgn ref tu. dye tau kiteorg training bagai nk gile tp last2 bile kat game dpt ref yg camtu. its okay cegu, jgn nanges.. nnt baby kat dlm perot nanges jugak. hehe but mmg sedih dan sgt la frust tp nk buat cane kan. trime jelaa. but its okayy..

yes I love my netball team, they are all like my own sisters.. I'll cherish every single moment that I had spend with you guys. I've learnt a lot through out these years lg lg bile masuk team netball cbn ni. mcm2 da jd. I've learnt so many things though. TRUST, LEADERSHIP, TOLERATE, DISCIPLINE, FRIENDSHIP, SISTERHOOD, LOVE, RESPECT, HEART BREAK, TEAM SPIRIT, TEAM WORK, RESPONSIBILITY, HAPPINESS, SADNESS AND LOADS MORE. kami da share dan harungi byk benda bersama. gelak ketawa sedih gila2. hanye Allah yg tau bile nnt da habis skola betapa rindunya dkt team netball ni. and tk kn lupa kata2 kak Fiza. insyaAllah we'll apply everything that you've been teaching us through out these years and we'll adapt and accept the real truth without any hard feelings into it and we promise to be more mature, especially in future and LIFE :)

ain, mai, aida, nani, sherry, atiqah, ashileen, ainur, jiha, rhupa, seetha

and kak fiza, cegu2, seniors

I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!

and not to forget anis yg sgt sayang akan kami. you know I love youu

p/s; you'll be my one and only big sister kak fiza gile :P

memenaattt

2010-11-10T00:21:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, the smallest things take up the most room in your heart.

now playing; always be my baby - David Cook

dududududuuu, hows everyone doing? :D sejahtera la ye semuanyaa.

okaayy, mata ketat tp berdegil utk post entry jugak. tktau nape. excited lebih ape aku ni. padahal tkde pape pun. haha okay mari lah kite type laju2. kalau bole laju dye tu bole kejar JET, tk pun F1. haa, cool kan? okay da. kau da bole stop dgn LAJU kau tu Put. haha

5days of holidays, then start training td. mmg mampuihh la ceekk. tk ckop nyawa da td ha. maen gile cegu tibai kami. tp tkpe, game pun lg bpe hari je so kene force diri, tp training today was like bloody hell. damn tired. exhausted! tp tkde la penat mane pun. ahha tp hari ni kite dpt pegang duit byk. seronok! tp kalau hilang tk ke kena pancung kepala aku ni kan? hehe actually, duit tu utk beli barang utk budak2 ni. so yeaahh. konon di berikan amanah utk pegang duit yg hampir mencecah rm1000 tu. tp slamat. td da beli sume barang. so legaaa.

tp tu bkn cite dye. cite dye skrg ni. cegu siti nor nk kahwin da tahun depan! excited gile. kahwin jugak kakak aku ni akhirnyaa. then yg best tu, dye nk kami budak2 netball jd flower girl dye, pakai baju sume same2 nnt. tk ke comel tu? sgt la terharu dan besar hati kami bile cegu ckp camtu. hee :') *aku bile la nk kahwin kan? nk babyy. hehe okay stop it Putri! ade hati nk kahwin, SPM pun tk lepas lg, stakat PMR je buatpe ann =,=' tp tp , tk sabar la cegu nk kahwin. and NERVOUS jugak utk game yg akan dtg ni. gigil pale lutut.

okayyy, I should sleep now. its getting late already. and oh btw, entry ni lebih kepada bahasa Malaysia. hehe saya bangga jd rakyat Malaysia! okay bye, nights ! xox

we will always be a perfect imperfection

2010-11-06T23:47:00.003+08:00

happy SATURDAY peeps! :)

honestly, I dont know where to start but.. today was finer than fine. and not to forget about last night's party at Sara's. well, today is Sara's birthday. so last night, we threw her a suprise party at midnight and we had a blast! sleepover at her house. it was EPIC! it was awesome! :D slept at 5 something. gossiping with them girls. cerita hantu la bagai laa. haha we had a great and precious time together I can say. just cant stop with these girls. haha and I woke up at 8.45am. but it was worth it :)

bought Sara a lucky charm necklace. dont know whether she like it or not. but it was just a simple gift from me to her after all. tk fancy pun. haha and fuck yeaahh she got a new guitar from her parents! fuck fuck! she's so lucky! yeaahh I envy her that much. haha but still happy for her. later we can do a duet cover ke kan Sara. woots! hehe anyway, I really really had a great time last night.

so yeaah, this is Sara. lawa kan,lawa kan? I know.

and again, happy birthday Sara. youre finally 16! I love you babe. we had a blast kan? muaahhhs x

and yeaaayy! I'm feeling so much more better now. sometimes, I think that life is about letting go and stuff. then we'll be more peaceful and all. its; GIVE and TAKE. and expect nothing and just take what I get. hehe but, I can finally smile. I can smile,like smile SMILE :) hehe and to M,L .. be strong. I know youre strong enough to face and to deal with the situation now but it takes time. hang in there pleasee babe, I know you can do it. and I will always be by your side, remember that. xoxo

baba's going to Makkah tmrw. naek haji kali ke-2. alhamdulillah. take care baa.. love you. mase berdoa di depan kaabah, jgn lupe muke2 kami di sini, especially anak mu yg sorang ni. hehe

deepavali woots!

2010-11-05T13:34:00.001+08:00

VANEKEM! :)

hehe first of all, happy deepavali to all of those who celebrate! have a good jolly time! and and yeaahh, happy holidays too! hee

anyways, just ignore my last post yeaa. I just dont know how to deal with the situation but I'm okay now! I'm trying to cope with myself and I'm trying to recover. I know, everything's going to be fine. thanks to all of my FRIENDS who will always be there for me no matter what. dear darlings, I never forget. maybe I'm not the best, but I TRY to be. I value each and love each and everyone of you, thnks for all of the continuous support. I really2 appreciate it. love yaaa!

I know I'm gonna be okay.

AxeOhAxeOh

26/10/10

2010-10-28T22:40:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE! :)

well, I'm here typing from my room. its 10.20pm. fyi, I'm wearing mama's blue kaftan. its so comfortable! hehe. hmm fuck! I need a new phone ;( bb perhaps? please mama baba baby sweetheart honey bee? sigh.
so yeaah. I have nothing much to share with you guys. but okaayy, I'm just gonna upload all the pictures since we had this sukaneka for form 3's. we, all the netballers were just helping Puan Ros and Encik Mior out. well, we had a blast, we laughed a lot yeaahh we had a blast! well it was on 26/10/10. tkdela lame sgt kan. well, enjoy :)

MYTHIRDFAMILY;)

♥

NANILOVE

RHUPALOVE

JIHALOVE

okaaaayy, ILYGUYSTOBITS! ♥

till then, xoxo

I t u b e

2010-10-25T19:51:00.002+08:00

lemme just use my own picture instead. haha

okay first and foremost, congratulations to my dear seniors for winning the open kebangsaan game. you guys did a really good job! saluteee! way to go WP! hehe so proud of them, bile la nk hebat cam dorg kan? cam tk je hahaha teett! well, maintain and play well for the nxt tournament okies? :)

anyway, mak is getting better. syukur Alhamdulillah. baba's home now. miss him. lame tk jmpe kan. tu yg rindu but abg's not home. he went to Melaka already. good luck with your finals abg! study okay! (tk ke pelik rindu abg. cam geli )haha

em em and yeaahh! I'm currently addicted to HORLICKS! before I go to sleep, I have to drink horlicks and I dont know why. if not, it feels like something's not right. can die die die! haha err drama much? I know I know. I'm weird. cam ade wayar yg tk btol kan? haha no no no, dont get me wrong. this is me. kalau mood okay, mmg gila2. kalau emo, tlg jgn kacau or else! watch out! haha

and oh oh ! I have my very own youtube account now. I'm so very the excited one! come come, visit me on youtube, http://www.youtube.com/user/PutriEiraR . hehehhee cool kan? I know. okay I know I'm so lame but whatever, I'm now officially a youtube user. hell yeah! haha (buat gaya cam tk pena tgk youtube je =,=') hehe

anyway, I just want to ask you guys a very simple question. I just wanna know, HOW MUCH DO YOU LOVE YOUR FRIEND? CLOSE FRIEND I meant.

well, for me, friends are like the second best thing that ever happenend to me. yes seriously. life is good. you just have to choose the right thing. life is just nice if you know to choose. I choose forgive. I've forgive. thats all I can say. but sometimes, I'm just done with this and that. well, I'm here again, want to say that I miss my girls. haha dont get emotional la Putri. brr they're doing fine just lame tk nmpk. haha see, I told you. nothing happen pun tp da emo bagai sbb rindu sgt kn. hahaha mood yg menggila. just ignore it :)

seterusnya, ramai pulak yg keep on asking me what song is on my blog. its CRY by JAY SEAN. yes yes, I'm loving this song too! kite serupa! hehe sedih menikam jiwa tp best. gratis gile smpai menikam sgale. hhaha okay da, bole diam da Put sebelum kau merepek lg byk =,=' haha

okay okay. till then. will update you guys later!

take a risk! no regrets!

2010-10-24T00:38:00.002+08:00

okayyy, hi everyone! :)

first of all, I wanna apologize to Qla J. I'm sorry Qla. I cant make it today. mama wont let me plus I dont have any money. so so sorry, no worries, I'll buy something for your birthday present! hehe love youu. SORRY AGAIN. I feel bad actually. bukan sengaja but, I'll make it up to her.

and yeah, tuanku ampuan najihah premier cup is not on this 26th. da postpone ; 15/11. so yeahh, mari ramai2 dtg ke TKC, Negeri Sembilan pada 15/11 ni. haha promoteee jgn tk promote! :P okay, cakap psl game, saya dgn rasa bangga nya ingin mengucapkan tahniah kepada pasukan Wilayah Persektuan kerana berjaya melayakkkan diri ke pusingan akhir esok dalam perlawanan terbuka kebangsaan (cara cakap tu cam da menang 1st je kan haha) anyway, good luck for tmrw, fight till the end. dont ever give up okay kakak2! :) I'm so gonna watch tmrw's match, WP vs Selangor, tp hanye di astro arena sahaje, wootss! haha same goes to Johor and Kedah , best of luck. play your best :)

okay, enough with the netball talking and craps.

next, I am now feeling alone and lonely, like forever alone. I just want things to get back to normal like how it used to be. I JUST WANT TO SAY THAT I MISS EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU MY BABYGIRLS! its not the same anymore. and I dont know why. what happened to us? *BIG QUESTIONMARK HERE* yeahh, whats happening?! Anis went to school yesterday. I told her everything that I know. and I can see and feel the frustration in her and the saddest part is I just cant do anything. yes, sgt sedih. I really hope that everything will be okay soon between all of us! *praying* I love you guys so much :'(

and to those yg besedih ketika ini, harus kuat yea. be strong. life goes on. it takes time to heal. dont give up. think positive and dont think too much. thats all I can say.

okay, enough for today. should sleep now. nights! xox

p/s; I'm missing you so much. need you, want you so much right now. kthnksbye

notetomyself

2010-10-17T14:22:00.001+08:00

from now on, I will expect nothing and just take what I get.

I'm tired and sick of waiting, wanting and for having this desire that I just can't afford to have :(

and yeah happy birthday to youuuuuu!

happy 13th birthday lil bro!! my one and only flesh and blood lil bro. jap jap, laaa baru nk 13. prangai tk padan dgn umur. degil ya amat, nevertheless, I love you birthday boy.

naturally (cover)

2010-10-14T20:44:00.014+08:00

hi everyone! I tengah bosan and there you go (sempat lg walaupun tgh finals).. hahahahah this is my first cover ever. sorry, I dont know how to play guitar but I can sing.. maybe? no? haha a bit la ( perasan banyak di situ) haha well, enjoy :)

p/s; sorry for the bad video quality and sumbang sane sini, lg lg guitar tu. haha

xoxo! and feel free to leave your comment! thank you

bingg bangg booomm!

2010-10-09T16:43:00.001+08:00

I'VE BEEN TAGGED !! :)

OMG! HOW AWESOME IS THAT? HEHE

actually this entry is about HER ; MEMELL LALA ♥

hehe, she's very very prerty kan? I KNOWWW! :)

I'm so gonna write something about her, since she's the one who tagged me and I know thats a must! *wink!

well, this post is particularly about you darling. hehe thanks for tagging me and thanks for giving me the best friend award. I'm so touched beyond words! :") eventhough, tk pena jmpe but well, I trust you and we have to meet up someday, kay love? ♥

actually, I'm feeling lazy now, and no, I'm not gonna proceed this tagging thingy. some other day maybe? yeaaahh , but okay, let's start ;

as far as I know her, she's pretty. inside and out
she said that she's fat but she's not. stop saying that okay darla? ;)
she needs more money.. why so? because she wants iphone4 so badly. go and get it girl!
and not to forget, she's gonna wear braces, soon! I'm so excited. and infact, by wearing braces, she's gonna look prettier and comel than ever!
as far as I concern, she loves 'A' very much than you guys could ever imagine
she loves pink!
she can really handle things calmly.
I know, she's a strong person
she will always be there whenever I need her
she will always give me advices when I'm at my lowest point.
I feel better and I love talking to her
she's being her, shes just being her self. and I like it that way. salute!
she's very good at keeping secrets.
and I lover her to bits! ♥

sebenarnye ada byk lg, tp smpai sini saje la. hehe and thnks again Mell :) xox!

♥♥♥

long hair, I miss

2010-10-07T16:47:00.000+08:00

DEAR LONG HAIR, I MISS YOU!

okay, I'm starting to miss my long hair. crap! why la all of sudden? brr.. just look at those pictures. hehe
okay now, I promise to myself not to cut my hair after this until its long enough, then baru la potong. so yeaah dear short hair, grow faster okay? hehe

okay okay, day 1 of finals are over. so that leaves.. 10days of hell! HAHAHAHA =,=' okaay, bm paper 2 was hard. too hard I meant. if I were to fail BM, just blame it on.... me! haha just because. and someone just inbox me on fb, I cried when I read all the msgs. its okay, be strong girl! what goes around, comes around k.dont think to much. I'll always be with you :) youre like my own sister..

its 7/10!

hehehe happy birthdaaaaayy Jue! sayang kau byk sgt. have a blast! youre a big girl now. hikshiks! and dont be sad k. kau bole cite semua dkt aku and dgn yg laen, and aku tau kau sedih an td exam tk dpt duduk blkg dgn kiteorg an. haha kesiaaann :P happy birthday again, lebiu .

and talking about lebiu lebiu ni kan, haaha ILY adik!! <3

leave me not kay budak kecik or else pancungggg! haha and jgn nk cair sgt la kan :P hehe ILY again

ting ting ting! final exam!

2010-10-07T00:09:00.000+08:00

F I N A L S !!

hi everyone! ole oleee oleeeee! just so you guys know, my final exam begins tomorrow! yeaappyy yeaayy! =,=' starting off with BM. ohh crap! I just 'LOVE' BM. NOT! haha but whatever, I'm not in the mood for finals! so yeaahh, screw you finals! I dont fucking care anymore because SPM is more important! haha sorry mama and baba. I'll do well and I'll study my ass off next year! promise! :)

but again, ade la takot sikit2 tu. gile ape buat finals awal2? sgt la tk ready. brr

and pity us netballers :( kena habis kan semua paper by next week cause the following week kena training sbb game dah dekat, which is on the 26th.

nape semua pun nk rushing? its very tiring you know. haihh and we have to go to schl this Saturday sbb ade paper. semua duduk ruma, ade mase nk study but we just dont.

okay girl ,sacrifice sikit. jgn merungut. this is what you chose from the start kan. :)

what happens tomorrow, happens. just go with the flow. anyway, wish me luck. till then! XOX!

I can do what she can do so much better.

2010-10-04T01:18:00.003+08:00

first of all, its October. whaaa? already? okay, dear October, please be extra nice to me, will you? :)

I'M HAPPY IF YOU'RE HAPPY!

this enty is about yesterday and about you :)
well, before this pun byk psl you but this time, its a bit special for me. after what had happened to us lately. with all the ups and downs and all the things that we've gone through kan. hanye kite yg tau ape yg da terjadi dan ape yg akan jd. haha
yeah, it may be a normal post to all of you but yeah its extraordinary for me kay. hehe

okaykay, back to the strory. hehe yesterday was pretty awesome and I miss it already. I've waited for so long and yeah it was worth it.
meeting you after so long, talking craps and all. danng! most precious moment EVER! seeing you smile makes me smile. you really made my day but yeah as always, awak mmg tk guna. meluat haha but still you're the only one that can make me smile like I really mean it :) thnks a bunch for that yeah sweets?
and thnks again for always being there for me, no matter what. seriously, youre the sweetest and youre the worst! haha well, you have to face it. its a fact! but yeah I love you nevertheless.
okaayyy, enough about you boy. <3

ayways, I would like to take this opportunity to wish you guys all the best! good luck to all of the PMR candidates. do well next week and dont be nervous! I'll always pray for all of you guys out there especially to all of my adiks! and dont forget to get enough rest! :) insyaAllah, dgn ape yg korg da buat, itu la hasil dye. and go apologise to your parents and teachers! and please, dont forget to pray, igt and mintk dkt Allah, insyaAllah. kalau takat blaja smpai gile tp Allah kite lupe pun tk bole jugak. so yeah and and hati kena bersih yea? :) xx

and oh crap! talking about next week, FINALS! urghh, exam starts on Thursday and I did nothing! this is sick! I should study and do revision. but I'm just a lazy bumm. but bile dpt result trok, marah , sedih. very typical of you Putri Nurhasanah Shahirah =,=' change your attitude please. when are you gonna study? nk good marks kan? so jgn malas. still got time. if not for this finals, do it for your SPM next year. *cehh motivasi diri sndri nmpk. haha bagos bagos ade kesedaran sikit di situ. anyway, BERLAJARLAH YE WAHAI MAKHLUK BIASE YG PENUH DGN KETIDAKSEMPURNAAN. (poyo sikit di situ)

ahhh, mmg hidup dlm mase akan dtg akan trase sgt penat, dgn training lg. exhausting! with finals, and after schl training, bile da mlm penat, bila masa nk membaca buku, nk membelek buku pun tk larat. wth? be strong girl! baru sikit je ni. thank God game is on the 26th not 16th! cant wait but I'm nervous as well! :S

okay la, done with today. penat :( wanna sleep already. plus its Monday! have to go to schl tmrw. haiyaa, goodnight bloggers! xox

the strong are the patient ones.

2010-09-26T03:06:00.002+08:00

getting over someone can sometimes appear to be impossible. it feels really bad when you fall in love with someone you can't have. it feels even worse when you are sure that this relationship can never work out. I think that this is the worst thing that could ever happen to someone. I believe that to forget someone is hard. in fact, it's the HARDEST "assignments" given in life, especially if you had this gut feeling that he/she is the ONLY ONE in the whole wide world.

it's hard for you to forget them completely. it takes time. no matter how hard it can be, you just have to face it because sooner or later, you need to accept that nothing last forever. toughen up! :) but don't push yourself too hard. it'll hurt very much. always pray to God. HE knows us well. and next, be patience. patience is very important. well, the strong are the patient ones.

for you YJ, xoxo

we all need mirrors to remind ourselves who we are

2010-09-25T22:13:00.000+08:00

I always have this fear that one day that you're going to discover that I'm not as great as you once thought I was.

2010-09-25T17:11:00.002+08:00

that says it all.

you are ; centre of attention.

2010-09-17T21:08:00.000+08:00

I really hate to do this, I mean canang satu dunia psl kau eventhough I did not mention your name, marah marah dekat blog semua but you know what? I just cant stand you anymore, LIAR! stop bitching around about other people. yea sure youre pretty but that doesnt matter because the heart does. you blame other people for what you have done. as though youre the nicest! urgh please!

it's okay, you can act innocent all you want, you can keep on blaming other people, make people think that youre kind. but I know the real you! yes, youre pretty on the outside but youre just damn ugly on the inside! deal with it! youre big enough to think and please change your attitude BECAUSE ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING! or else people will hate you forever. ahh, lazy to layan you anymore. you just wait until others see how two-faced backstabbing lying hypocrite you are. SO ..

youre one hell of a BITCH you attention seeker!

P/S; I'M DONE WITH YOU GIRL. HAVE A GREAT LIFE IN THE FUTURE. I'LL PRAY FOR YOUR HAPPINESS XOX

Is it just me or is Raya this year kinda lifeless

2010-09-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

*I'M BLOATED! :D*

KEDAH TIME : hari ni pergi merata2 tmpt. kerja mkn je, tp tkpe, dpt jmpe ramai org. hehe duit raya pada tahun ni tk hangat lg. maybe tk dpt from mama and baba lg, and ramai tk balek kampung, so yeah, tggu balek KL nnt. yehaa! :D

hari ni saket perut pun bole tahan sbb masuk mcm2 kan. tula. julap julap! haha and sgt belengas ye hari ni ke sana sini pergi beraya kan.

and and I think this year punye raya is not that happening as past years. I dont know why but still okay la. ade la that hot heat heat of raya. bole jmpe semua org and I'm thankful :) anyways, I'm watching hantu ambulans. I dont know why but its funny but scary a bit la. so yeah, gonna continue watching it and yeah I'm off to bed after that :)

p/s; sgt best la tgk cite hantu dkt hall tok ramai2 and tido ramai2 juga. priceless moment xx

and and IMY handsome

Aidilfitri 2010

2010-09-09T00:01:00.004+08:00

I'm in Ipoh right now. jalan tk jam mane pun. anyway, raya raya raya! Eid is tmrw! hehe so nk wish dulu sbb nnt mesti busy byk kerja kena buat.

selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin !!

happy Eid to everyone! and during this holy month, I'd like to take this opportunity to apologize to each and everyone of you from head to toe. sorry for the harsh words that I've said, sorry for the wrongdoings that I've done. so sorry for everything that I've done, intentionally or unintentionally. may you have a blast Eid with you loved ones. hope this year Aidilfitri will be more meaningful and better than before. once again, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin !

love, PutriEira xx

a day to remember

2010-09-08T03:22:00.003+08:00

so this entry is about yesterday. me and my girls including their boyfriends had a lovely buka puasa at Madam Kwan's Pavi. 14 of us! it was just awesome. it was better than expected. we went to Sungei Wang and did a little shopping. oh! I miss hanging out with my girls, especially Anis. she's all grown up now! besar dah anak mama. hehe rindu dulu sgt. good old times I can say.

and jeng jeng jeng! the best part is,

haha for the first time, we paid without a fuss! so proud! hehe

and I hope we can always do this everytime Anis gets back , and one more time before Anis goes back, to MRSM. I LOVE YOU GIRLS TO BITS! MUAAHHSS!

Welcome September

2010-09-01T00:39:00.003+08:00

dear September, please be nice to me. I'm sick and tired of August. please please please, I'm begging ya! InsyaAllah, September will be a great month for all of us! and and Aidilfitri is coming! its just around the corner. I cant barely wait ! :)

lowest point

2010-08-21T00:35:00.006+08:00

okay, well actually, something terrible happened to me. and now it feels like I'm at the lowest point of my life. I'm not as strong as you think I am. but when Achik said ; " you have to be strong. kalau mcm ni pun da tk kuat, cane nnt kalau benda lg besar jd?" so yeah, just BE STRONG PUTRI. BE STRONG!

p/s; You'll never know how strong you are, until being strong is the only choice you have

guys and girls

2010-08-19T15:33:00.002+08:00

We guys don't care if you talk to other guys.

We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls OR TEXTS you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 am that it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/stunning, we freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong.

We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood I'm in.

Let us pay for you!
Dont 'feel bad.
We enjoy doing it.

It's expected.

Smile and say "thank you".

Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.

If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.

We like you for who you are and not what you are.

Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.

Or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

Don't talk about how hot Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.

It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word "handsome"/'beautiful"
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/stud/cutie/sexy" or whatever else you can think of.

On the other hand I'm not saying I wouldn't like it either ; )

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change!

Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect. Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say "I love you" ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

Guys repost this if you agree.

Girls repost this if you think it's cute.

Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this,
so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.

ADVICE:

*Holding Hands
Girls: If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.

*Movies
Girls: During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder.
Guys: Lift her chin up and kiss her.

*Loving each other
Guys: When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it.

*Laying below the stars
Girls: When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heartbeat.
Guys: Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

all we gotta do is love love and love

2010-08-11T01:46:00.005+08:00

okay here's the thing. well actually I'm so tired of life sometimes. but I know, truth is everybody is going to hurt you, you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for. Even when times are rough, you just gotta know how to keep your head up for the one you love. idk .but yeah, I will do whatever it takes as long as everyone is happy and no one gets hurt.

current mood/ feelings ; relate to this song.

Albert Posis- all we gotta do is love

We're back at it again.
No need to pretend.
Just another fight
This don't feel right. No.
You're yelling on the phone.
You say you can't this anymore.
You're sick of it.
About to quit. But.

Girl I know it's get hard sometimes
But we gotta stop fighting.
Just gotta keep trying, flying.
Girl I know it feels like you can't do it.
But here I am, just take my hand.
Cause together we'll pull right through it.

Because we're made to be together.
There's no one I'd rather be with.
Baby just stay with me forever.
It's only you, girl believe it.
Baby just trust.
Ain't gon give up.
Cause I got you.
All we gotta do
Is love.

Girl I know it's hard. It's like
Distance is tearing us apart.
But I want you to know.
That I'll never go. Oh.
Cause I'm so in love you.
Baby you're my dream come true.
Can't imagine my life
Without you by my side. No.

I couldn't see myself in love with anyone else.
Gotta keep this thing going.
My love for you's still growing, flowing.
Forget the past and just look ahead.
Cause whether you're mad, sad, or glad, I'm...
Gonna fight til the end.

I'm really am sorry,

well hello Ramadhan!

2010-08-11T01:31:00.002+08:00

okay first of all, happy fasting peeps! may Allah bless us with joy and grant us total forgiveness and and be nice. :)

ahh cant wait till Eid! hehe well, just be true to yourself and be demanding with your religious activities :)

its all right here

2010-08-04T20:00:00.000+08:00

just because she comes off strong, doesnt mean she didnt fall asleep crying. and even though she acts like nothings wrong, maybe shes just really good at lying.

Jiha

2010-08-02T18:43:00.005+08:00

sisters♥

But something keeps pulling me back

2010-07-30T17:24:00.004+08:00

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry, Well that's all right because I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie.

For what you've done to me, I still cant get over it everytime I see her face or whatsoever. I'm sorry. but I do really love you and I'm hoping and I'm begging you not to repeat the same mistakes again because it hurts :)

I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight

2010-07-29T23:57:00.004+08:00

Take me away to January, I'm done with this year, I'm tired of everyone here.
I just need some time alone, before I'm ready to come back home.
There's got to be something else out there for me. I could really feel it in my heart.

looking at you makes it harder .

2010-07-28T18:40:00.008+08:00

we didn’t realize we were making memories ,we were just having fun .but whatever ,memories are the best souvenirs .you know that I love you so ,I love you enough to let you go .I would have let you leave .but I'll always love you and it'll never change :) thanks .and piu piu right through the heart TM ?haha thnks for the memories :)

xoxw ,me & you ♥

forgiveness & letting go are steps on our road back to happiness

2010-07-26T15:47:00.003+08:00

Hurt once and losing everything was enough ,falling again and taking all the risks again would be idiotic .but I don’t know .not all boys are the same, they are all different .we have to decide what’s most important to us .keeping our pride and getting nothing or taking a risk and maybe ,maybe having everything .

There are two types of falling; falling-in-love or falling-out-of-love .the height of love is scary when you fall deep down ,you don’t know what to expect and the bruises ,cuts and the eternal scars maybe linger on you .but the ride up can be great ,the greatest feeling in the world .but you have to manage to do it right because if you don’t ,one small wrong move could kill you ,and the pain is unbearable .but nobody is perfect .we are all imperfect so we tend to make mistakes .but ,to that one special person’s eyes ,your imperfectness makes you perfect for him .

But now, it seems all that risks would be worth it .the labels seem to be so worth it and I wouldn’t mind the lack of liberty because it just means he cares .that wall he puts up is his shield of love because he doesn’t want us hurt or anything to happen to us .he’s there to protect us and to be there for us .

he's so adorable and I'm a mess ;

I allowed someone to love me ,still :)

2010-07-24T16:42:00.003+08:00

I used to be much stronger .show neither pain nor emotion meant less people to worry about me ,less trouble and hassle .I used to be an expert at it and I had kept it up for years .

but now ,the walls I built to block it is slowly crumpling down and I’m getting weaker with every heart beat .I had never felt so exposed and open ,no line of defense and I felt naked .I allowed someone to love me…

it’s harder to keep up a fake smile without breaking and the acting gets stressful .then I realize this isn’t my play anymore ,this dream was coming true and my feelings were real .

so scared of breaking and so scared of falling .being so scared of showing someone else my imperfections .but ,I’m the bravest girl you’ll ever come to meet ,yet ,I shrink down to nothing at the thought of someone really seeing me .I don’t wanna live my life so guarded or it’ll be filled with regret .

I trust you but sometimes it’s hard if you keep me in the dark .you call me paranoid but what can you expect if you don’t tell me anything .set me free cause I don’t know what to do with myself .

I allowed someone to love me ,still :)

hubba hubba

2010-07-20T22:36:00.001+08:00

I'm head over heels in LOVE with you sweetheart .
no matter what ,always have ,always will .I love you so much♥

its called love

2010-07-20T22:14:00.002+08:00

Dear Brain, sorry for overloading you with thoughts of him.

Dear Tummy, sorry for all the butterflies.

Dear Pillow, sorry for all the tears.
Dear Heart, sorry for all the damage.

for real ,I miss this feeling

2010-07-20T21:59:00.003+08:00

I miss that feeling when you go to sleep at night and when you wake up in the morning .its the feeling that everything is alright in the world .you know ,that amazing feeling when you’re whole that you’ve got everything you want ,that you aren’t missing anything .sometimes when i wake up , I get it for a moment .it lasts a few seconds but then I remember what happened and how nothing has been the same since .

scared

2010-07-20T21:53:00.001+08:00

do you want the truth ?there's never a day in my life where Im not scared .Im scared of not succeeding .Im scared of not falling in love .Im scared of never being a part of “they lived happily ever after” but you know what I’m most scared of ?Im scared of finally getting everything that I have ever wanted .Im scared that the moment I have everything I have ever wanted that it could all be taken away from me .there could be nothing worst than knowing that there is something out there better experiencing it only to lose it and never to obtain it ever again .

MESSED UP

2010-07-19T21:48:00.004+08:00

I'm in a exam week now but totally not in the exam mood .HAHA so it's the third exam of the year of 2010 .how awesome is that ?NOT !haha
okay 1st day of the week ,BM ;sucks ! SCIENCE ;it was okay .SEJARAH ;the best ! =,="

after schl met A ,ahhh I miss you so much la gilaaa !we went to Bangsar because A got this dentist appointment ,btolkan braces dye sume and after waiting for A for about half an hour ,then we off to KL Central .had our lunch .its was so nice meeting A at first .but BAAMM !we got into fight .we were like insanely ignoring each other all the way from KL Central to LRT Star .greaaatt !both of us were like so fucking ego .we're in such a mess !urrggghhh !this is totally made my day . =,=!

so the conclusion is ,today ;SUUUCCKSSS BIIGGG TIMEEEE !

p/s ;okay .so I'm sorry ,I'll change .sorry again .you too have to keep all your promises kay .ily still .xox

-If you really love him/her then you've got to fight for it, that's the truest way of loving someone.

truth hurts

2010-07-15T21:26:00.003+08:00

So ,its the third week of July .and it sucks pretty much .*cam bulan2 sblm ni tk trok pulak la kan .* anyway ,yesterday CBN had this friendly match against Solihull School from UK . we won but they were like so sweet and friendly .ehee and most of them are like Justin Bieber's die hard fans !but then again ,Justin Bieber okay whaaatt :) and and ohh yeaahh .da potong rambot .bloody shit !cam buruk .amoy to salah potong !dammnit !but what ever .nnt pnjang jgk .and I heard that cegu Haida masok hosp because of H1N1 ?WTF !get well soon cegu !love youu .risaauu .hmm sumpah skrg otak sgt la semak dgn byk benda .penat kdg2 bile cani je but tkpe ,come on Putri !youre strong enough !I know .hmm tillll then ,xx
p/s ;happy 13 months !

it takes time for me to heal .but don't worry I'll be fine soon .I guess :)

FUCK IT

2010-07-12T12:31:00.003+08:00

ah fuck !I seriously dont know what the fuck should I do .I cant fucking stop thinking about this whole fucked up situation .I fucking tried but it just cant seems to cant fucking leave the fuck of my mind !

p/s ;me too

MUFUFASAA

2010-06-30T19:17:00.005+08:00

I woke up yesterday and realized that every area of my life was mediocre ,at best. It was a good wake up call .its time to stop being a victim and really take control of my life .

so ,here I am .hee :) okay for the time being ,I am very happy with my life because I am extremely blessed and contented with what I have been given :) and may all the goodness continue to flow for time to come .

and big thanks to everyone esp my family ,my friends !thanks for always being there for me .for making me smile ,for always supporting me .thanks for every single thing :)

I'm happy with my life but I believe I can be happier :)

anonymous; ur lack of blogging has made ur blog quite boring .

me ;I dont blog everyday .haha .unless you want daily reads that goes like this:

hi ,today I woke up ,I ate my breakfast and went to school with my mum .oh my ,school sucks !after school I ate mcdonalds with my friends then we went home ,did some homework and I
fell asleep .

then yes ,I strongly suggest you to go find someone elses blog to read .thnk you :)

p/s ;and to you my reader , sorry if I'm letting you down but I'm not like that .haha

chaos-ness

2010-06-21T12:12:00.005+08:00

okay first of all ,I went to Bandung and Jakarta the other day right and it was so fucken awesome !we were shopping like crazy and theres a lot of handsome guys and pretty girls also ! :D I'm so lazy to post about the vacation because yeaahh ,it must be really long and I'm in such a hurry posting this entry right now .haha so yeah ,I've uploaded all of the pictures (FB) so yeah ,go check it out ! :) and and thnks for the birthday present andachik and kak Nad .me love you !

second of all ,its about this 'PAU' thingy or or SAMUN that happened to my brother and his friends on the 16/June/Wed .and surprisingly this happened inside the Pavillion !yeahh dekat dalam Pavi !duuhh !all the securities were like goyang kaki only .kata ada cctv and mmg nampak dlm cctv tu budak2 ni kena ugut and kena tarik dekat escalator but they do nothing .nothing !penyamun ni sume dapat larikan diri .at last bile sume benda da kena kebas ,budak2 ni pi security office bwt report .

1. canon DSLR

2. handphone -5

3 .money

all gone !and my brother got punched in the chest !wtf .and laen sume kene sepak kat kaki .shame on you suckers !cam tkde keje laen ke nk samun budak form1,2,3 ?haisshh kesian .naseb baek tk jdi pape dekat budak2 ni .haa ,some pictures of them kene bawak police bwt police report dkt Balai IPD Tun H.S Lee .hehe

and and on the 18/6 one of the penyamun get caught for doing the same thing at the same place .yg laen sume dpt lari .you know what ,all of them wore the same shirt and all just like they wore on the 16/6 .mmg tkpat la nk lepas kan .da kene gari sume .alhamdulillah .spe bwt jahat ade la balasan dye .harap2 lepas ni tkde lagi jdi cam ni dkt spe2 pun esp me .insyaAllah .pray hard ! :)

and lastly ,thanks Iman for the top .I love you so much ster !xox

TWELVE !

2010-06-15T15:22:00.001+08:00

LIKE FINNALY .FINALLY !HEHE

♥

10 JUNE 2010 !

2010-06-10T02:00:00.004+08:00

hoyyeaahh !happy sweet sixteen to me ! :D

yes yes ,I'm finally sixteen .yeaayy !thnk you for all the sweet ,lovely ,wonderful and thoughtful wishes peeps !I really really appreciate it .yes ,i have a lot of wishes this year and I hope all of them will come true .if not ,at least one and it will make my day and its good enough for me .

and yeah ,I'm going to Bandung this afternoon .so yeaah ,I hope everythings gonna be alrite there . xx

and thnks Syazleen for the birthday card !hehe

from a friend ,to a friend ♥

2010-06-08T18:23:00.002+08:00

Fulfilling A Best Friend's Request

You know what kind of people deserve respect? People who are able to hide their emotions just so his or her surrounding wouldn't know and feel low or obliged to feeling the same way the emotion hider does. Trust me, you wouldn't hear this alot from me, cause I'm all for people expressing instead of hiding. But, this post is for one of my best friends which perhaps, not stating her name would be safer. And she's exactly that. One hell of an emotion hider. It's appreciated, sometimes. Cause I hate how some people like to show how mad or sad they are about something, like overreacting and seeming like basking for sympathy and attention. Don't get me wrong, it's good to show your emotions. But just don't push it.

And this friend of mine? Well, thing about her is she absolutely HIDES every single sadness she goes through. No one would have any idea that her night was shitty or if a major dilemma comes up. I find that a bit problematic of her, but that only proves she's brave. And strong.

Here it goes. You should never blame yourself for what has happened. It never was your fault to begin with, keep that in mind. You-know-who is at fault and should know well to not follow his desire so much. He should know how lucky he is that you actually forgave him and was okay with moving on and putting it all behind, even though it is way too painful for any girl at all to handle. Maybe one day he'll realize his mistakes and for being so blind and oblivious all these while. I promise you, he will. But for now, you just have to toughen yourself up like I know you can and vow to yourself to not do anything stupid at all. Not only will you regret it later on, it is also just not worth it.

I'm here for you best friend. We all are. You just have to reach out and perhaps be more open. It is always, okay to cry. You know I love you.

p/s ;thnks baby girl .youre the best .

taken from Rao's blog :)

2010-06-03T19:42:00.005+08:00

WHAT EACH KISS MEANS

- Kiss on the Forehead: We're cute together .

- Kiss on the Cheek: We're friends.

- Kiss on the Hand: I adore you.

- Kiss on the Neck: I want you, now.

- Kiss on the Shoulder: Your perfect.

- Kiss on the Lips: I LOVE YOU...

WHAT EACH GESTURE MEANS

- Holding Hands: We definitely like each other.

- Holding you tight pressed against each other: I want you.

- Looking into each other's Eyes: I like you, for who you are.

- Playing with Hair: Let's fool around.

- Arms around the Waist: I like you too much to let go.

- Laughing while Kissing: I am completely comfortable with you.

ADVICE

- If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely

in Love.

REQUIREMENTS

- Add this to ur favorites after reading!!

Or you will have a bad year of Relationships.

IF U (LIKE)(LOVE)(MISS) SOMEONE RIGHT NOW

- and can't get them out of your head.

- then add this to ur favorites within One Minute and Whoever you are missing

will surprise you.

I can’t function the same when you’re not here

2010-06-03T18:37:00.012+08:00

the thing about love - the most dangerous thing ,the part that keeps a certain sort of nervous person up at night .is the fact that once you really ,truly love somebody ,no one will ever be able to hurt you like he or she can .

there is dignity in not giving up on someone you truly love .but there is more dignity in letting them go so they can experience better love .that shows your true love because you then become unselfish and through putting others first ,unconditional love grows .

there is respect in fighting gallantly to win someone’s heart another time .but an even greater respect comes from fighting hard and knowing when to stop even though you would give anything to have that past back ,that person has touched your life in a way that will make your future so much brighter .accept that ,and hold your head high ,knowing you have captured their heart as well .

there is courage in allowing your heart to hurt and grieve ,but there is a greater courage in knowing it will be scarred .but stronger as time goes on .for whoever caused those scars has made your life better in some way and will make you better person when you marry because of what the scars taught you .

remember how many people depend on you and whom you mean the world to .there is fortitude in holding on for another chance although an even greater fortitude comes from extending your hand and heart in friendship realizing you will still share things with that person no one else ever will .

you will always, have the looks and jokes and memories .don’t ever discount how special those things are in your heart and theirs .true love hurts when it is lost ,but an even greater love grows inside yourself through realization that something better is in the world for both of you .and that there are still things to share with that person .

even though some feeling may have changed .take their hand and help them achieve their hopes and dreams .because in that there is dignity ,respect, courage ,humility ,fortitude .

p/s ;I'll fight for this love

L o v e

2010-06-03T16:01:00.002+08:00

Love? it might be a cycle ,when you love ,you get hurt .when you get hurt ,you hate .when you hate ,you try to forget .when you try to forget ,you start missing .and when you start missing ..you'll eventually fall in love again .simple as that ..

and again ,

2010-06-02T17:42:00.001+08:00

if two people are happy together ,then leave them to it .it's their lives ! -take note here !

and

I'm going to sit back and laugh when karma punches you in the face !

take note

2010-06-02T14:04:00.002+08:00

just because I'm here for you all the time ,

doesn't mean you can take me for granted .

the truth

2010-05-30T21:19:00.002+08:00

finally ,I know the truth .all I can say is I'm happy for you .no wonder you've been so happy lately ,esp since that happy day for you and until now .I thought it was me who made your day but I was wrong .I WAS TOTALLYYYY WRONG ALL THE WAY !fuhh !I think ,for me ,youre just using me esp when you want something from me .what a life I'm living right now.haih .you ,thnks a million ,you broke my heart .thank you for every single thing .thank you so much :)

so cute :')

2010-05-30T19:22:00.000+08:00

When my boyfriend and I were 13, he wanted to give me a piggy back ride, but I refused because I thought I was too fat.

He picked me up and said, "You better get used to this, cause I'm picking you up like this on our wedding day."

We got married last night. He carried me just like he said he would.

waka waka

2010-05-27T23:48:00.002+08:00

aahh ,I'm such a bore .school was okay .had lunch with Nadzirah at ais kepal Kg.Baru .gossip-ing all day long with my fav people .hehe cam tk jmpe setahun je cerita tdi .I'm so excited .someone gave me this one nickname ,UIEE ,isn't it cute ?so cute right .hehe scaling teeth tu was like fuck !saket gile .huwaa :'( darah2 mengalir cam air hujan .smpai skrg saket tk hilang lagi :(

p/s;you ,pls dont give me such hope if you want nothing more ..should I wait for you to change your mind ?idk .you gave me hope ,but then you'll take it back .nonsense ,I know right .hmm

urrgh !but its okay .come one Putri .smilee smile :)

love

2010-05-26T19:16:00.000+08:00

falling in love is awfully simple ,

but falling out of love is simply awful

baby

2010-05-25T18:51:00.003+08:00

Once a cheater, always a cheater. That's not cons !

and and 4 more days to go but it's alright :) .
I'll be waiting for you to come back ngok .
now what I need is for you to make it complete .
so please come back faster .

hot and cold

2010-05-25T18:16:00.002+08:00

okay here we go .ni cerita dari last week .so yeaah :)

last week was awesome but exausting .cbners had this citrawarna practice and same goes to the other schools thats involved with the colours of one Malaysia thingy .for the one whole week ,we had to go to PWTC to prac ,etc .

ahhh ,finally ,the actual day was on last Saturday :)
it was a hell of a night !the show went well and yeah was superbly done by all of us who were involved !I really had joy and fun .and our MEGA DIKIR BARAT was like the coolest dikir barat ever !the largest dikir barat in Malaysia yaww .more than 6000 people kot .hehe

and after this ,I'm so gonna miss everything esp our teachers -kak Aiyue and abg Ayied .thnks to both of you guys and I would like to thanks a million to the crew esp Pak Ngah Production and to Mak Ngah also .and and abg Belalang too .hee :)

love you guys <3

you made my day

2010-05-17T18:19:00.002+08:00

what I think about you by ASHILEEN ARRIVEENA

when i first saw u as ur reflection..i thought she must be some corky arrogant girl but after knowing you...haih..your so cool to hang out with and open minded too.With ur sweet smile that could melt anyone's heart and those scary big eyes that we know when ur mad n when ur not. Friendly...loving...and down to earth. What more words can i find...I can laugh and never end when your around.Though you never showed your love as a friend obvious enough.You keep it tied up in your heart but i could see how much of your love worth when you cry...:P
so put your someone that i can say this too..' a friend in need is a friend indeed'....continue rocking the world!!!

I'm so touched beyond words babe :)

thnks awak .sgt terharu .hehe

OMG !

2010-05-17T18:05:00.003+08:00

currently addicted to this song .and I super duper love this cover by Heshima :)

ELEVEN !

2010-05-16T22:01:00.002+08:00

15/5 .hehe thnk you for all the wonderful things that you've done to me ngok !kau jauh ,aku jauh .kau cam setan ape aku kesah ?hahaha and walaupun prangai awak cam hareemm je tpi tkpe ,kene kuat cam tiger .haha :b

i need a love song

2010-05-08T17:23:00.002+08:00

Although fr the peringkat negeri we only got 4th placing but at least we did try and play our game and fight until the end .congrats dear netballers . :)

and I'm so dead . -.- mid year exam is on Monday .FML .I know nothing !gosh !

I never go to class since end of March .screw me .haissshhh :(

happy

2010-03-29T22:43:00.005+08:00

Alhamdulillah ,on the 16/4 .cbn under 18 netball team won the MSSMKL Zon Keramat .
and under 15 got 3rd placing .its okay you guys .nxt year ade lagi kay :) thnks to teachers ,kak Fiza and kak Nouvy :)
so nxt goal is for the inter-zone .go Keramattt ! hot to go !cam boleh menang je .bahhaha

p/s ;yet I'm still miserable inside